Berri's Journal

Apparently, last night's stress was too much for me, because I've been sick ever since I woke up. I can't experience anything stressful without feeling like I'm gonna cry, cowering, or feeling like I'm gonna be sick, and then I internalize it and I do get sick. I literally have no idea how to express my feelings without writing them down, and even then, I'm misunderstood. I don't wanna go to the ER.

I've been thinking about the effects alcohol has on our family. There are alcoholics on both sides of my family, yet my dad treats the subject of alcohol so leniently. It infuriates me >.< He acts as if a little won't hurt me, but it obviously will! Not everyone's constitution is the same, stupid dad -_- I simply can't trust myself with alcohol. One sip, even of champagne, and I'm sure I'd be hooked for life *shudder*